Hey folks.  I've come to a decision.

I will be closing this site.  I abandoned it for far too long, and I don't like the username anymore, and it just doesn't feel right trying to pick up where I left off here.

But I do want to continue blogging.  I will be opening a new Xanga account - Wendi5000.

Please be sure to follow/friend/subscribe/bookmark my new site.  This will be the last entry ever on this site - and in the near future I will be locking it down completely.

Thanks for all the comments & support and I hope to see you all at my new "home."

The single high-powered rifle possessed (illegally, I might add) by Adam Lanza was found in the parking lot in the trunk of his car.  He used a handgun in the shooting.

So, why is the discussion about banning "assault rifles" (a term that applies to cosmetic appearance rather than function of certain high-powered rifles by gov't definitions) in order to stop school shootings (in schools, which are already "gun free zones")?

I've been unemployed since February.  I worked for a small company, and my job was outsourced as a direct result of the "Obamacare" bill passing.  So, ironically, I had health insurance (for the first time in many years) before Obamacare, but lost it as result of it (I've yet to see how they plan to handle folks like me with zero income who have no way of obtaining it but would be very happy to have it).  But that isn't the point of this post.

Being out of work has left me with a lot of time to think and reflect on my life, and one of the conclusions I've reached is that I'm happier now than I've ever been.  I don't have a home to really call my own - I am fortunate to have a dear friend who has taken me in and lets me earn my keep by doing chores, cooking for him, and helping with his business.  We seem to have a relationship developing, which also helps, but I digress.  I have nearly zero income, aside from what I earn through various online survey sites and the like, which amounts to a few dollars here and there - but my needs are met.  I have a roof over my head & enough food to eat, clothes to wear, and basic toiletries & other necessities. 

Don't get me wrong, I'd love to be employed if I could find a job that I'm qualified for (or even under qualified at this point).  I'd love to be financially independent again.  But, the honest truth is... I'm happier now than I've ever been.

That may seem to be a strange statement, but it's true.  I am happy because I am free.  Free to follow God's will for my life, to do what I am called to do, without having anything to tie me down.  I don't have the constraints of family, kids, work, school, etc. to stop me now.  If God were to call me to the other side of the world (and if He did, He'd provide the means)... I could follow at a moment's notice without a second thought.

This is true freedom, true happiness.  It isn't always easy, but that's the nature of freedom.  And I am truly free.  And that makes me truly happy.

What is happiness to you?